2020 fic commentary
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latespringit's been a year, hasn't it! jumping in to the trend dia started, here's a brief reflection on my fic so far in 2020! I'll do the "official" 2020 roundup similar to 2019's when we get to the end of the year. I pulled two fics (a shortfic collection and chanfest), so those won't be included in this. I might make a post about chanfest later though.
title: desire three shades distant
word count: 22517 (wow)
commentary: I think I've mentioned it somewhere before, but this was the longest fic I've ever written! the whole thing came out of nowhere, I projected 10k and ended up with this. with distance I can see it could do with a good rewrite and reoutlining the whole thing, but I'm really proud of getting it done, and the fact that the dynamics still hold after some reflection. I'm really grateful to the people who read it over for me as well, their encouragement kept me going as it hit 12k. lastly, I'm still so thrilled dia liked it, because that was the real goal after all.
a line i loved: In the winter night, Seokmin’s hands are warm. That’s me, Mingyu thinks blearily. I’m under her skin.
title: follow you down
word count: 4827
commentary: this was very much me throwing darts at a board, but the reception of it was far more than I expected. honestly it's a simply story I think was well executed, and for that I'm happy with it. I could nitpick more but really, what would be the point? think instead about minnow the cat <3
a line i loved: Junhui has always known that by marrying Minghao he was marrying the water as well. When Minghao returns from his trips across the ocean, it is always with another lover on his lips. And every time, Junhui kisses away the saline, welcomes him home with words and body, until all the salt that lies between them is their own.
title: let the light in
word count: 16406
commentary: ug. UG. despite how much time has passed, I still don't really like this fic. it's the first and last time I'll ever write college au. I know why I don't like it (doesn't dig into characterization as much as I'd like, the pacing was rushed, and I wasn't really attached to the subject matter), but that doesn't really do much, which is a shame because I really like some of the prose in it!! I won't take it down, but I'm not going to put in the effect to put it to rights either. there's some stuff in there I do like (food as a love language, Jun and Mingyu's kindness to each other. the multi-media elements to it, the prose) but it's hard to focus on.
a line i loved: ">What he has is a darkroom kind of love, the kind of thing that develops like a chemical reaction. As a photographer, Mingyu has learned not to trust his eyes. Anything can change in the light.
title: envy the birds
word count: 3168
commentary: cursed by another marina song... I don't have much to say, I think it's ok for what it is and it was my first wonu so I'm happy with that!
a line i loved: Once upon a time, Wonwoo allowed herself one wild and reckless thing.
title: other end of the line
word count: 3521
commentary: literally no words!! almay cursed me with jb and I have never been the same since
a line i loved: “That sounds like something,” Jinyoung says. “Are you bleeding? Do you need me to call in Youngjae again?”
For all that Jinyoung can see there’s something up, sometimes she misses the point entirely. “I’m fine,” Jaebeom says. And then, “I just miss you.”
title: marital/martial
word count: 9833 (1/2)
commentary: it's my babyyyyyyyy. I'm never objective with wips I'm currently writing, and this one is no exception. endawn kind of got away from me, but I'm not signing up for any more fests until it gets done. this was a seokhao for dia's birthday, and I really love the themes of it! ultimately I think there's a section in the latter half that drags a bit, but the prose was super self indulgent and the opportunity to write about pacrim, one of my favorite franchises, was great!!
a line i loved: "Of course not,” Seokmin says. Her voice wobbles around the vowels. “You can never take a break, can you?”
It’s true. Minghao pushes herself hard, runs on single digits of sleep and k-tape and bullheaded determination. The harder you work, the luckier you are, and Minghao needs all the luck she can get.
title: alight, tonight
word count: 3642
commentary: riley cursed me with the vision of drumline vernon and it has not left me since! carina opened this collection just after, so I got the chance to try and de-curse myself (it didn't work). this is a sweet piece and I'm happy with how it turned out.
a line i loved: Hansol feels like she’s made of firelight, hungry and bright all at once.
title: in truth, in body
word count: 4625
commentary: jb!!! catboys are real and can happen to you!!!! another one in the line of "almay jb curses" that I have yet to rid myself of. she won't accept him back for some reason :/ the title for this one was the hardest; I accidentally named it something I'm saving for a different work lol. I really like the concept, it's fun in a silly way, and while it could do with some editing, I'm glad almay liked her birthday present <3
a line i loved: He can only imagine the headlines if they had lost him and he turned back human outside. Boy Group GOT7’s Leader Found Naked in Seoul, Eating Cat Food!
title: somehow, morning
word count: 4479
commentary: my first woncheol! half of it was for leesa, number one woncheol enthusiast on my tl, half of it was to try and get a read on seungsol! i think it does what it set out to do! (that is, be a brief reflection on idol life, and also be half of a roadtrip fic). I was writing this while in school I think? I just remember being incredibly stressed about deadlines while putting it together.
a line i loved: On tours, he sits with Wonwoo during times like this. Pressed shoulder to shoulder, trading back and forth quiet words until Seungcheol can feel sleep tugging at his bones. Hands and hearts and midnight conversations are what anchor him away from the stage. They're how Seungcheol returns from within himself, and sets S. Coups aside for an evening.
title: a wandering sort of light
word count: 4813
commentary: my first ficmix!!! I was super excited to participate this year, and meeting and becoming friends with my recipient through this (we got each other) was so wonderful! I'm not sure this fic really has a solid plot, but it does fit pretty nicely with the fics I was remixing. I'm super super grateful to riley and sig for looking it over for me, their advice and reassurance was really helpful <3
a line i loved: “Good. I’m glad.” When Chan looks at him again, Junhui’s face has gone tender at the edges. “Get your shoes, let’s go out. I’m going to teach you how to pick pockets.”
title: a dream, six feet down
word count: 2931
commentary: this was another birthday fic! I have since sworn off writing them, but I really enjoyed this final product. I haven't reread it recently, but I remember really liking how the backstory and dream sections came together. I know this might change in the future, but as of now, I don't think I'd change anything about it.
a line i loved: There’s promise in it, an urgency that comes not from a lack of time, but from an abundance. Yes, him, Seungcheol thinks to himself, leaning down a little further to kiss Jeonghan again.
Yes, forever.
the only goal I have for the rest of 2020 is a remix exchange that I can't tell you anything about!! I'm excited for it though, please anticipate <3
2020 Posted Fics
title: desire three shades distant
word count: 22517 (wow)
commentary: I think I've mentioned it somewhere before, but this was the longest fic I've ever written! the whole thing came out of nowhere, I projected 10k and ended up with this. with distance I can see it could do with a good rewrite and reoutlining the whole thing, but I'm really proud of getting it done, and the fact that the dynamics still hold after some reflection. I'm really grateful to the people who read it over for me as well, their encouragement kept me going as it hit 12k. lastly, I'm still so thrilled dia liked it, because that was the real goal after all.
a line i loved: In the winter night, Seokmin’s hands are warm. That’s me, Mingyu thinks blearily. I’m under her skin.
title: follow you down
word count: 4827
commentary: this was very much me throwing darts at a board, but the reception of it was far more than I expected. honestly it's a simply story I think was well executed, and for that I'm happy with it. I could nitpick more but really, what would be the point? think instead about minnow the cat <3
a line i loved: Junhui has always known that by marrying Minghao he was marrying the water as well. When Minghao returns from his trips across the ocean, it is always with another lover on his lips. And every time, Junhui kisses away the saline, welcomes him home with words and body, until all the salt that lies between them is their own.
title: let the light in
word count: 16406
commentary: ug. UG. despite how much time has passed, I still don't really like this fic. it's the first and last time I'll ever write college au. I know why I don't like it (doesn't dig into characterization as much as I'd like, the pacing was rushed, and I wasn't really attached to the subject matter), but that doesn't really do much, which is a shame because I really like some of the prose in it!! I won't take it down, but I'm not going to put in the effect to put it to rights either. there's some stuff in there I do like (food as a love language, Jun and Mingyu's kindness to each other. the multi-media elements to it, the prose) but it's hard to focus on.
a line i loved: ">What he has is a darkroom kind of love, the kind of thing that develops like a chemical reaction. As a photographer, Mingyu has learned not to trust his eyes. Anything can change in the light.
title: envy the birds
word count: 3168
commentary: cursed by another marina song... I don't have much to say, I think it's ok for what it is and it was my first wonu so I'm happy with that!
a line i loved: Once upon a time, Wonwoo allowed herself one wild and reckless thing.
title: other end of the line
word count: 3521
commentary: literally no words!! almay cursed me with jb and I have never been the same since
a line i loved: “That sounds like something,” Jinyoung says. “Are you bleeding? Do you need me to call in Youngjae again?”
For all that Jinyoung can see there’s something up, sometimes she misses the point entirely. “I’m fine,” Jaebeom says. And then, “I just miss you.”
title: marital/martial
word count: 9833 (1/2)
commentary: it's my babyyyyyyyy. I'm never objective with wips I'm currently writing, and this one is no exception. endawn kind of got away from me, but I'm not signing up for any more fests until it gets done. this was a seokhao for dia's birthday, and I really love the themes of it! ultimately I think there's a section in the latter half that drags a bit, but the prose was super self indulgent and the opportunity to write about pacrim, one of my favorite franchises, was great!!
a line i loved: "Of course not,” Seokmin says. Her voice wobbles around the vowels. “You can never take a break, can you?”
It’s true. Minghao pushes herself hard, runs on single digits of sleep and k-tape and bullheaded determination. The harder you work, the luckier you are, and Minghao needs all the luck she can get.
title: alight, tonight
word count: 3642
commentary: riley cursed me with the vision of drumline vernon and it has not left me since! carina opened this collection just after, so I got the chance to try and de-curse myself (it didn't work). this is a sweet piece and I'm happy with how it turned out.
a line i loved: Hansol feels like she’s made of firelight, hungry and bright all at once.
title: in truth, in body
word count: 4625
commentary: jb!!! catboys are real and can happen to you!!!! another one in the line of "almay jb curses" that I have yet to rid myself of. she won't accept him back for some reason :/ the title for this one was the hardest; I accidentally named it something I'm saving for a different work lol. I really like the concept, it's fun in a silly way, and while it could do with some editing, I'm glad almay liked her birthday present <3
a line i loved: He can only imagine the headlines if they had lost him and he turned back human outside. Boy Group GOT7’s Leader Found Naked in Seoul, Eating Cat Food!
title: somehow, morning
word count: 4479
commentary: my first woncheol! half of it was for leesa, number one woncheol enthusiast on my tl, half of it was to try and get a read on seungsol! i think it does what it set out to do! (that is, be a brief reflection on idol life, and also be half of a roadtrip fic). I was writing this while in school I think? I just remember being incredibly stressed about deadlines while putting it together.
a line i loved: On tours, he sits with Wonwoo during times like this. Pressed shoulder to shoulder, trading back and forth quiet words until Seungcheol can feel sleep tugging at his bones. Hands and hearts and midnight conversations are what anchor him away from the stage. They're how Seungcheol returns from within himself, and sets S. Coups aside for an evening.
title: a wandering sort of light
word count: 4813
commentary: my first ficmix!!! I was super excited to participate this year, and meeting and becoming friends with my recipient through this (we got each other) was so wonderful! I'm not sure this fic really has a solid plot, but it does fit pretty nicely with the fics I was remixing. I'm super super grateful to riley and sig for looking it over for me, their advice and reassurance was really helpful <3
a line i loved: “Good. I’m glad.” When Chan looks at him again, Junhui’s face has gone tender at the edges. “Get your shoes, let’s go out. I’m going to teach you how to pick pockets.”
title: a dream, six feet down
word count: 2931
commentary: this was another birthday fic! I have since sworn off writing them, but I really enjoyed this final product. I haven't reread it recently, but I remember really liking how the backstory and dream sections came together. I know this might change in the future, but as of now, I don't think I'd change anything about it.
a line i loved: There’s promise in it, an urgency that comes not from a lack of time, but from an abundance. Yes, him, Seungcheol thinks to himself, leaning down a little further to kiss Jeonghan again.
Yes, forever.
2020 Goals!
the only goal I have for the rest of 2020 is a remix exchange that I can't tell you anything about!! I'm excited for it though, please anticipate <3